7 months after? Hah, im not surprise. My lack of effort, no wifi around, industrial attachment to Royal Brunei Airline and laziness were the reasons why i cant go online much to update. Even if i did update, who in the world visits my blog?
Anyways, updates updates updates.
As usual, gone through shit and im shutting down. I did the inevitable and shun myself away from people but surround myself with people i trust, cherished and considered as family. After that accident on December 2011, which though bad, was the push i needed to turn my life around by excluding the constant drama people who surrounds me kept on producing and including the self healing... physically and mentally. It wasnt a wake up call, it honestly was the push i needed.
I was procrastinating on trying to get rid of people i know who reeks of capability in producing drama like its their oxygen. Im not that cold hearted to just cut off people in an instance but no, i was stupid enough to just let the problems happen before i could avoid it... just hoping for once i will be wrong on the fact not all human beings are dumb fucks. I hate being accurate a majority of the time, it makes me bitter and see the world with eyes full of nothing but dissapointed. Im just too good in "predicting" what will happen, not only because in Brunei, idiotic repetition is their lifestyle but because i read people just too well.
Socializing is wrong but sealing yourself from the world is wrong and combine a balance of both is also wrong. I have no idea how to solve this one little aggravating puzzle.
From the head injury i had and ruptured blood vessels, i guess im okay. The, god knows how long, insomnia i had to undergo finally took its toll. I have been sleeping like mad, my sleep lasting for more than 17 hours per day for 4 weeks straight. I guess my body needed to catch up with the sleep i needed... and the fact i have been sick for coming to two months because i found out my immune system is too weak, therefore susceptible to infections and all that. Lung infection was one of them, then the constant flu and so forth. Week after week of being sick did not help with strengthening my immune system. I had to quit my 30 to 45 minutes of walk everyday because of my illness -____-. Now, i guess im okay. Im not getting ill as often as it was for the two months of hellish sickness i had to endure.
Although through all the shit ive gone through, i have no idea but... i found people whom i can trust and whom i can go to when i most need them. Im glad but unfortunately i can see this wont last long, although as much as i want to. If its my luck, it wont last long.
Goodbye, Friday.
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